HOW HEAVY IS YOUR HEART?

This poem I dedicated to my first born son. He was the most happy baby you could wish for, always smiling in spite of wet nappy or a late feed. As a boy he sailed with his good friend around the Rottnest Island and dreamt about pirates. He was always shy. He never talked too much but he had the most beautiful smile, which touched something deep in your heart.
Suddenly approaching his teenager's years his heart felt heavy. He stopped smiling and stopped talking.
Often, in our adulthood we have one or two areas in our lives where our hearts feel heavy. Our hearts could feel heavy with regards to relationships, finances, carrer of perhaps family issues.
What made my son's heart suddenly feel so heavy, I wondered.

HOW HEAVY IS YOUR HEART?

YOU ARE HERE
because I've fallen in love
with your Father

Your Dad,
our provider,
responsible for a necessary
culture
of material values.

Your Dad,
who demonstrate truth and knowledge
in practical ways,
does he forget to talk to you?

Does he forget to talk to you
about what is important,
about love, life, truth and death

YOU ARE HERE
because I've fallen in love
with the beauty
that
resides in all living things,
the smell of flowers, the feel of the earth

Come closer,
I whisper to you:
Feel deeper,
the real sensation of love.
There is a difference
between passion and lust.

Step forward to be
a masculine man
you want to be,
but remember,
if a man cannot truly
respect and love a woman,
then he cannot love his children rightly:
he will give them the wrong idea of love.
Step forward
but do not forget to look back,
to your Mum's feminine side
so you can inherit a world less
burdened,
where mistakes aren't repeated,
where lives can be orientated towards
fulfilment, caring and love

YOU ARE HERE
because I've fallen in love
with myself
again
it takes a moment
to fall quiet
and just ask your heart
what it desires Move forward
my Romulus,
my son
Get yourself unstuck!
Not to be tied
to hurt and pain
from the past.
Let it go
then listen with your heart
and see
what comes up!

Finally,
I am looking for a light at the end
of this tunnel
I reclaimed my power I took responsibility
for my own life
or death

Let us both
hold our heads
high!

I am ready to let you go...

HOW HEAVY IS YOUR HEART NOW?